Day 11: the worst advice you’ve ever heard, or ever been given
Im not sure, it probably was something like “forget about her, move on” stuff like this annoys me cause you don’t really help the person build towards their “goal”, you just make a generic point about something that doesn’t help as the person most likely already knows that.
Day 12: the best advice you’ve ever heard, or ever been given
Don’t worry about the future. Or worry, but know that worrying is as effective as trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing bubble gum. The real troubles in your life are apt to be things that never crossed your worried mind, the kind that blind side you at 4 PM on some idle Tuesday.
Day 13: your favorite quote
“There are only two tragedies in life: one is not getting what one wants, and the other is getting it.” - Oscar Wilde
Day 14: write about something you believe in, anything at all
Hmm i am not sure, i have a lack of faith in anything. (will get back to this if i do conjure up any ideas)
Day 15: a song that makes you cry and why
It doesnt make me cry but its a song that gets me down a bit. The Scientist - Coldplay
Think im just going to release these in 5 day bunches
Whoops missed about 5 days of this due to assignments and exams.
Day 6: something you would like to change about yourself
Be a lot more hard working and less lazy about things. Everything i approach and do, i usually take the easy option or the option that requires less work, i literally have no motivation or passion for anything and i wish i could find it in me to care enough about my approach to life.
Day 7: a show or a movie that has changed you, and how
Urm, i don’t think any show or movie has impacted my life that much it has changed me, maybe HIMYM because i relate to it a lot.
Day 8: things that make you sad
Stupid people nothing! i just feel awesome everyday
Day 9: things that make you happy
Being to spend time with my lovely friends and little brother.
Day 10: what you think when you hear the words “be yourself”
i think HAA cause that is going to solve anything, if anything it will make things worse.
Because sometimes I just want to feel I haven’t lost touch with the world
Going to start this because i am bored. Think i shall do the first 5 :)
Day 1: hopes, dreams, and plans for the next 365 days with a picture of yourself
What i hope to achieve within the year is to graduate and feel comfortable playing poker for a living, i want to earn $50k just from my winnings by the time i graduate so that i know that i can play poker and rely on it as a regular source of income. Poker is something i really enjoy doing, some of you may think what the hell, risking my future on professional gambling but right now I don’t really know what i want to do as a profession, ive always known that i never wanted to do anything psychology career related but i do enjoy the subject (was always told to just do something you would enjoy at uni). It is going to be hard as i can be very lazy but i am determined to do it as it happens to be the only thing i am sure of. I would also like to travel once ive graduated and i am hoping i will have enough money to go on a trip to asia with a good poker buddy of mine. I think the main focus for me is to just concentrate on my work and poker and improving my work/grind ethic. I have acknowledged for me to succeed i have to drop any interest/pursuit in girls in order to succeed which is slightly depressing but i must not have any distractions!
Day 2: something that’s illegal but you think it should be legal
Urmm Weed? It seems perfectly harmless to me
Day 3: what you think your reason for being here is
I have no idea for what my reason for being here is, i don’t really make people’s lives better or anything, i’m not really an inspiration either. I am just here.
Day 4: how you think your life would change if you achieved your dream
I think it would be amazing just to travel and see a load of places without worrying SO much about money
Day 5: something you would change about the world
Get rid of stupid people; i seriously do not tolerate stupid people well. I would most likely change all the suffering in the world. This world we have has too much pain in it.
I have to do it. i have to no matter what. I must and i will but i don’t know when but i need to. In order for me to reach my goals i just have to let it all go.
Sigh
I am one year away from graduating, provided that i don’t fail my second year.
Ive never really wanted to pursue a career in psychology, such as being a therapist or some kind of clinical psychologist. A bit of waste of £9k but oh well :)
My plans for after i graduate are:
- Travel
- Plan A: Spend one year playing poker to see where i get
- Plan B: Go back to university (hopefully i get a 2:1) and plan to become an Experimental Psychologist (cause i like numbers and all that)
- Plan C:
become a trampI don’t know, find a job and try to work my way up somewhere
Today I experienced an actual representation of what I have been feeling.
I know full well that I shouldn’t even bother because I know it won’t end well, most likely for me but I really can’t help it.
I think I’m starting to fall for you
Even though you piss me off, I still run back and forgive you after a hug from you. That’s how much I liked and cared about you.
I have always been so ever since. Thats what caring does to you, it makes you stupid
When you feel like you can’t seem to do anything well in life.
Just not trying hard enough at uni. Not working hard enough in poker and just constantly failing. Not caring enough in your personal life or spending enough time with someone because the stuff you do just doesn’t warrant you enough time to spend with people.
Life is lame atm, i have too much on my mind when i go to bed every night. Somethings are left unsaid but too late to be said.
